YAY! I'm slacking big time when it comes to DA so if you guys wanna keep up with what I'm actually doing or if you wanna be my buddy. Then check me out on MySpace! Mmmkay? Loveyoubye.

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Yeah I'm still being a lazy bum. Plus I got the internet back in my room, but I cant upload pictures on that computer nor do I have Paint Shop so I'm kinda screwed. The only time I have to really mess with pictures and all that is when my older brother is at work. Other than that, SUMMER HAS BEGUN! I'm moving into high school next year and hoping I dont get beaten on too bad. I'm gunna make the most of this summer for sure. I'm talking to Paul again and things are promising. I'm having so much fun. Love all of ya lots and I hope that you guys spare me because I'm being so damn lazy these days.

Love yas.

Okay I've been really tired and lazy with DA all break. I have over 60 pictures from this weekend and I'm gunna put some of em up eventually and at my own pace. I'm tired and I have school tomorrow... Stupid shit...

Okay so today from the time I woke up until I stepped out of the car to walk into the mall, sucked.. It sucked big hairy sweaty balls. But anyhow, I saw The Ring 2 and it was so good Kallie, Sarah, and me left early... So we walked around the mall. I saw these two guys that I had seen there the last three times I was there. (Mind you they are soooooo sexay) I finally was pushed into going and talking to them, which was a good thing. It all started the way many things start with me, a hug. I told them both that I had seen them and thought they were cute and I wanted a hug. They both agreed and I was super happy that I got just a hug. So they kinda walked off and we sorta followed them into the next store they walked into. From there we talked a tiny tiny bit. I had the worst feeling that the one of them (Joe, or aka Steve) didnt like me so I decided to give up on it. We walked down to another store and I was like 'Fuck it atleast let me go look at their asses or something.' So as we were walking out of another store we saw them and this time they came up to me and Joe asked me for multiple hugs. So from there we just started talking and I decided to grab my new sexy buddies, named Warren and Joe to the Ice Arena with us. Bad idea. It was basicly empty so it sucked. We were all bored and ended up walking to Burger King twice. Well the second time was just to trick us into getting the fuck out of the arena. From there I could see that they were really bored so I let em go on home. (Which I felt bad about cause they had to walk) But I got his number and the little freshy! Warren kissed me! Geez! Everyone makes moves on me! Not that I didnt like it. He has very nice lips, though he tasted like the body spray that Joe sprayed in his mouth. Not to delightful but atleast I could tell that the taste was staying. Very lovely. And I got his number. Gorgeous.

Last night Paul broke up with me. I'm completly devestated. One moment he 'loved' the next the feelings just magically disappeared. As some of you may know I'm the biggest anti-cutter in the world.. Or I use to be. Last night it was just complete and utter shock. So I cut. No not my wrists so then the world could see. But I did. And I dont regret it but it didnt help. Along with that I was puking and shaking uncontrolably. Which I know sounds pathetic buts its the facts plain and simple. I'm sick of being crushed by 'love'. I still have feelings for him, sure. My best friend's boyfriend broke up with her Wednesday.. I couldnt possibly imagine how she was feeling until right now. And oh my God do I regret not giving her every second of my time to talk to me. This is the worst pain I have ever felt to this point in my life. Just shock and betrayal...